7.10.2017

On the Come Up


 



If there's one thing at which I'm confident in my abilities in doing, it's making music videos... of myself. I am fully aware at how narcissistic this is. But its effect on me actually goes a lot deeper. So much deeper, in fact, that the narcissism becomes irrelevant to me.

Here's a list of some of the main things that I'm about. Things that make me ~feel~. Things that make me ~me~.

Creating
Self love
Music
Humor
Nature
Aesthetic
Independence

When I make one of these videos, I'm not just doing it so that I can look cool. I'm not just doing it so that I can receive praise from those who see the final product. I'm doing it to create. I'm doing it to make something from start to finish. From concept to production to execution. I am using my hands, my eye, and my heart at every step of the process. By using myself as the subject, I get to feel the love I have for myself. I get to feel like a star. I get to portray myself in a way that makes me feel like a goddess. When I make one of these videos, I get to experience the above list of things all at once, and exercise and grow my talents all at the same time. Why the hell wouldn't I.

Whatever it is that makes ~you~ feel. Whatever it is that allows you to grow and shine and exercise ~your~ talents. Do it. That's what you're here for. Be the star you already are.

<3

22 comments :

  1. Cultural appropriation. You should look it up.

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    1. I'm curious to know how being inspired by a song and allowing it to fuel a creative process would be viewed as cultural appropriation. Maybe I'm being naive, but I've been listening to hip hop since I was in elementary school and have always felt a connection to it.

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  2. Hey! nice pose you are not afraid to touch the snake you are brave.

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  3. I wish you'd blog full timeee. I feel like your blog would be amazing!

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